Friday, October 2, 2009

Living it... one last time!


I think I have finally found an answer

To a question that I had posted long ago

A feeling such

That I don’t wanna write no more

A satisfaction that cannot be explained

My mind is empty

No more reasons or excuses

No questions unanswered

No need, no greed

No pain…

Pain, that I had started to love

What is left, is a feeling

An indication of the fact

That my soul feels complete

This completeness brings fear

A fear that only goes with pain

A loss I cannot bear

Souls are immortal

But mine shall die

A peaceful death

This shall be the last of me…

Saturday, April 11, 2009

My first Love song with music :)

The band Agnee had composed a love song and they wanted someone to write the lyrics.. I did, but they didnt like them :(

Anyways, I had lots of fun doing it! Here they are..

You can get the song at http://www.mtvindia.com/agnee/ 


Hum hue

Itne kyon juda

Mil naa payein

Kho gaye tum is tarah

 

Hum hue

Itne kyon juda

Mil naa payein

Kho gaye tum is tarah..

 

Tumhe chahta hoon main

Na socha tha ye din aayega

Tum na ho yoon saath jo mere

Na mujhe manzoor

 

Tum kaho ki ab main kya karoon

Tumhare hi khwaab mein rahoon

Tumhe yadon mein dhoond ke mile

Is dil ko sukoon…

 

Hum hue

Itne kyon juda

Mil naa payein

Kho gaye tum is tarah..

 

Tum na ho to tanha hai ye mausam

Faasle jo bane, kyon hue na wo kam

Bas ab is dil mein hai yehi aramaa

Tum ho meri…hai mujhe yakeeen

Tumse hai sara jahaan

 

Hum hue

Itne kyon juda

Mil napayein

Kho gaye tum is tarah..

 

Tumhe chahta hoon main

Na socha tha ye din aayega

Tum na ho yoon saath jo mere

Na mujhe manzoor

 

Tum kaho ki ab main kya karoon

Tumhare hi khwaab mein rahoon

Tumhe yadon mein dhoond ke mile

Is dil ko sukoon…

 

Hum hue

Itne kyon juda

Mil napayein

Kho gaye tum is tarah... 

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

The Life Line


There is a certain line on our hand

That is an indicator of how long we live

I don’t know how far I have come

But of all I read, of all I saw

I have realized one thing

It’s not how much you live

But how you live the little you have with you

 

In my quest of living life the way it should be

I have ended up living for others… Alone

Living for myself is counted as selfish by many but few

But as they say, Life is like a book

And if you don’t explore, you only read a page

 

I have finished a page

And I like being there

Reading it again and again

With so much so far

I feel complete and empty at the same time

Full of emotions that have drained me out

Of love

Of grief

Of self belief

That now I don’t feel no pain

A part of me has left it all behind

A part of me left with it…

 

I am left in half

I need to collect myself

From places that touched me

From people who were a part

From the love I once felt

From the pain I still feel

To start afresh

On a new page

With a different colour this time

 

But again I ask myself

Am I running away… To be alone…?

Will I end up in the same way one more time?

I don’t know what the future holds for me

For all I know

It’s a new start… far far away

And this time

I will try not to look behind…

 

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Rememberings in a drop


Rememberings in a drop

 

The 2 years at MDI….justified. Nimisha, one of my best friends at MDI composed this piece. Simply beautiful J

 

I sit by the window watching the rain,

Rain drops smoothly trickle down the glass

Travelling a journey...

I look closely..I see moments in them;

 They look bright in the water..reflect enraptured moments...

The cool breeze sprays cold water.. the images bring warmth..

 

I see faces from the top..they appear unfamiliar

I get curious..i see them closely.. they smile to me..

I become acquainted.. I like them..

They come closer... I delightfully look at them... those twinkly faces and eyes..

I live those moments..

Some are of unending talks; other of bashes together..

Some posing like statues...others in some intriguing activity..

They freeze.. I keep gazing...losing track of time..

I blink eyes;  and they start distancing..

 

They are moving fast..one drop cohering with the other..

 I try hard to look at them..

Just to say...hey stop!

 

The drops are now a stream..smoothly coursing down the glass..

As the stream bids goodbye..the sun shines..

A rainbow egresses

I see them all through colours...bright and shiny

 

The rain stops...

I close my eyes...and smile...

I will miss them..because I will remember ..

Friday, January 9, 2009

Ctrl + Alt + Del


Never ever did I know

That I will need it in real life

With just too much happening

Too fast

Too soon

The system had to hang

And that’s how I spent the last night of last year

I desperately needed a ctrl+alt+del

So did I use it?

Yes

The good thing is

You don’t lose everything to start again

That even after you end a few tasks

Which were not responding

There shall always be some

Which are running Successfully

With those you can proceed

To find yourself back in the program

One more time

So how do I see to it that the system doesn’t hang again

Well, I have emptied the recycle bin

Deleted cookies

Archived files

So on and so forth

The problem is

My mind has given up on me

And so has the heart

I think I need to run Nero or something

You never know

There might be a virus …

 

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Given up

I tried
And tried
And tried
To move
I wanted to go back
I had taken the wrong turn
While trying to reach somewhere
On ‘The Holiday’
I did go west
Travelled places
Mostly Europe
I thought there had to be an exit somewhere
But wherever I went
Left or right
I couldn’t go back
Alone
And now
I have given up
The only light I see
Leads to a way ahead
But I can’t travel alone
I would need someone
He, who brought me where I am
I know I said No
It graduated from a “Maybe”
And has terminated in a “What If”
I don’t want to live with that
I think I have to try a “Yes, maybe”
If that’s even an option
All I have to do now
Is wait for an answer...

Monday, October 6, 2008

Still travelling...


100 points for understanding what I am trying to say here...

We can never change what happened
Neither can we predict the future
Sometimes we can’t even tell
Why we did, what we did
It’s all written
But there is a reason

I don’t understand what’s written for me
I have tried to mould the present
I have tried to see the future
I thought I knew
But every time I was so sure
Life took a U-turn
And I was back at the first stop
God! I hate travelling so much
I wish I had a map
Only if I knew who was driving….

This long lost adventure has made things complicated
I wonder if there were any clues on the way
One thing’s for sure
I couldn’t find the short cut
And this long cut is taking forever…

So if the present is really a present which I think it is
Can I please open the gift
There might be a Map ;)